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"Bleeding Love"

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

[	Current Location	|	Work	]
[	Current Mood	|	hopeful	]

• What I would change about me
  
  
  Somethings on my outer appreance not alot just some
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  Im kind of annoying - I tend to go on about things and not really realise that I should drop something or that something isnt as funny as I think
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  My weakness of forgiving people to easy I let people get off to easy I forgive somethings I shouldnt. 
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  Im kind of jealous. I dont know why but I get jealous easy and I really dont mean to. I dont like that in someone elese and yet I do it.
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  My inability to really say NO.  I say yes to easily to people and things when I shouldnt..

The way that I take things so seriously at times. I cant take jokes very well.



I guess there is always room for improvement the problem is just doing it. Change is something that is a good thing in my opionon now if I could only do it.<3


*Things I wanna do before I die*



-Travel so much more and to somewhere far away

-Get my associates and get a better paying job

-Own a house

-Be truly happy (not that I am not now) 

-Do something adventreous and thrilling

-Fly on a plane

-Get married

-Have kids!
 

[	Current Location	|	Work	]
[	Current Mood	|	drained	]
[	Current Music	|	nothing	]

 Once again at work in the early morning.
Had to get online to check my test grade from class which of course my teacher has not posted yet. Btw I take my pscyh. class online I thought it would be easier but it really isnt that much easier at all. Im so tired I have been sick so last night I kept waking up in the night with a sore throart. It was awful. So Im very ready to get back home and sleep until I have to return to work and then I have to return to school this evening for another class. 

Kids amaze me I have kids that get here at six in the morning and I would think they would be sleepy and eager to just rest as long as possible but NOPE not these they are completely awake and active. They have way more energry then me. Once or twice in two years have I seen a child come in the morning and put there head down to go back to sleep!


I get so frustrated with some of the parents in my work, Like the ones who just dont take the time of day to care about their child. I see alot of parents like that. They just dont care and you can tell it. Like when they drop their kid off late for school every morning because they cant get their lazy butt out of bed and then "forget" to pick their child up because they are sleeping. I had a child w. a 102.1 temp and called mom to pick them up and her reply to me was " Do I have to come and get him because Im napping and have a headahe" WHAT THE HELL... Thats crazy. The things I see in my job drive me crazy sometimes. But I do love my job because I love working with the kids. 

I have class tonight im not really so eager to go this class is dull an long an I cant stay focused during it. But I suck it up and do it anyways.

[	Current Location	|	work	]
[	Current Mood	|	crappy	]
[	Current Music	|	none!	]

I tend to write the most in the early morning because this is when Im most alert. I wake up at 5am for work and sometimes sit at work in the morning with nothing to do waiting on kids to show up. Im sick right now went to the beach this weekend and apparently picked up a virus while I was there I loved the beach though I had a lot of fun. Rockie *(my lovely boyfriend) * and I went to a lot of great places down there. Anyways so Im sitting around at work sick and all I really want to do is be home in the bed w/ my love. Well until he goes to work then its just me and my bed! So let me see what can I say about me, Im 19 I am very random. I love to be online and I currently go to community college to finish my assoc. degree in early child hood. I love my job in the daycare because it is always something new and  intersting each day. Kids are a passion of mine. They are great. Although I do not have any children I love the ones in my daycare! 

<3
Manda